What is it about a new year that makes us all reflect so much. After going out last night to see the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, I must admit I got to thinking about great literature and movies and why exactly that movie and book sticks with you. I actually had trouble getting into the book at first. The guy writes with a tremendous amount of detail, which tends to lose me unless it is done with a certain amount of pizzazz. Since my dream is to write a great book, it makes sense that I ponder the whys of a good book. I have written 2 mediocre books so far, so I am trying to step my game up a bit. I am in the middle of writing a third book, but have gotten bored with it. If I am bored with it as the creator, I must accept the fact that it can’t be all that good.
Getting into the zone and staying there long enough to create something worthwhile and “moving” is certainly the biggest part of success for creative types. When I factor in my own version of ADD and also try to make a living along the way, it seems to sap my motivation at some level. I keep thinking that someday when I retire, then I will have the time to write a fabulous book. But I don’t really want to wait that long. I want my mother to read it. So I need to get cracking.
When I consider that my mother will not be all that happy about reading a “lesbian” book, then I find myself getting upset. I guess I want to write a book about women, because women are what make my world go around. But then, if it gets too “lesbian”, my mother will never read it. I know that about her. I guess I have to admit that in some way I am still trying to show mom that I am a real writer and that she can be proud of me for that. Believe me, I know how pathetic that sounds.
Since I write for a living, I guess I have the right to claim that I am a writer. But, writing business articles does little to really move anyone to tears or laughter, which is what I want to do. I know how much I appreciate reading a great book. I want to do that for other people, at least once.
So now I have to decide what type of book to write, one for myself about my world (lesbian), or a different type of book that will appeal to the mass public. The experts say to write what you know. So I guess I have my answer.
Happy New Year!
I have to vote lesbian!
I hear you!